Time Heals All Wounds?

They say time heals all wounds….I’m not sure I agree. With time the pain lessens, life keeps going but the wound still exists in the form of a scar. One week from today our sweet angel baby will celebrate his first birthday in Heaven. Though time has kept ticking away, though this year has brought us the miracle of our daughter, though the chaos of life has drown out the initial grief in the moments of silence I hurt.

This upcoming celebration of life has proved to be more painful than last year’s. I have had the great joy of watching Jasmine grow, learn and come into her personality which makes me yearn to know the child I never met.

Who would he look like?

Whose personality would he take after?

Would he be walking? Talking?

The list goes on and on……

People assume that having another child in some way will replace the other. This could not be more untrue. From the moment of conception our first child was entirely different than our sweet Jasmine. I guess that is what pains me the most, not having the opportunity to know our son or daughter.  My heart just aches.

When a woman has a miscarriage she loses more than a pregnancy. She loses all the hopes and dreams she had for her baby. She loses a future she was so eager to start. She loses memories she’ll never get to have. She loses a part of herself. A part she will never get back.

As January 13^th approaches I will praise the Lord for the blessing of two children: one in Heaven and one in my arms. I will praise Him for His provision. I will praise Him for giving me the time He did with my angel baby. Though I will weep, I will praise Him.

Time may not heal all wounds but it does keep going (sometimes much to my dismay), and with every second I am given I will keep the memory of my Jellybean alive.

“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy


<3 JT

“I Will Carry You” Selah http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxZhEcTzn6Q